Sticky Side of Heaven


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Took Will shopping last night. We desperately needed food, lots of it. So the two of us spent two hours in one of the largest grocery-only stores I have ever been in. I can't tell you enough what a good little boy he is! I don't know how many people can sit in a cart for 2 hours and be pleasant the whole time, a difficult task indeed :) He had cranky moments and mom bought a lot of things that wern't on her list, but it was a fair trade. He is learning lots and lots of new words everyday...let's see "pumpkin, tree, rice, coffee." Oh, I took him to work the other day before taking him to an appointment and he held my coffee cup and walked around the office and offered all the clients a cup of coffee, "coffee? coffee?" Tells you how bad mom's habit is!! Tonight is Halloween and I might take him to the neighbors house to ring the bell but that's it. We will stay home and pass out candy. I'm sure that will be bewildering for him. Not sure how to keep kids from ringing on the bell while I'm putting him to sleep. I'm going to turn the porch light off but I don't know how many that will keep away. Should I put a sign up "Keep Away!! Nasty Witch lives here!!! Ring the bell and Die!" HeeHee! I'd sure have fun making that sign :) The pumpkin I carved last week has caved in a little bit, giving it a wonderful effect of death and decay.

After he's asleep I guess I'll pass out the candy I have untill its all gone. Should take about 5 minutes or so :) I only bought two small bags, however, if I don't pass it all out then I will be the one eating what's left, not a good thing!! Americans spend about 7 billion dollars on halloween, 1.7 billion dollars on candy alone!!!! Halloween is one of my favorite holidays (cause its in my birthday month, of course) but I recoil from the intense merchandising that has sprung up from it. I like carved pumpkins, pumpkin pie and real costumes...the kind that you made at home. Now you go out and by the precarved pumpkin, the prebaked pie, and a $40 costume with a makeup kit. Where's the family involvement? It's my favorite holiday because I have such wondrous memories of it. I think back and remember the colorful cold promise of winter outside, the warmth inside (especially in the kitchen), going to pick out a huge pumpkin with my mom and picking up the smaller sugar pumpkins at the same time. Then learning how to bake the sugar pumpkins while carving the jack o lantern into fantastic faces that I would dream up. Salting and baking the seeds and making pumpkin pie and soup out of the baked pumpkin. I loved adding lots of pumpkin pie spice to everything and then sometimes we would splurge on some early eggnog and I would add the spice to that. "Here, taste some of this eggnog, Jen." "No!" :) It was definitely my favorite time of the year. I hope I can pass some of that on to Will. I like to remind myself of the original reason for the holiday, as a day of the dead, to remember them, respect them and honor them. And then to remember our own mortlity, that this too shall pass, not just in an individual sense but in a world sense. The human race will not last forever and a day. That is harder for me to comprehend than my own mortality. I think I shall light a candle tonight to remind me of all that has passed and all that is yet to be and to remember that the only thing I can hold lightly in my hands is the fleeting moment of today.

I have a lion costume for Will, I will try to take a picture of him before he rips it off :) I do have a lot of undeveloped film as I have been busy taking pictures. I just need to drop it off somewhere!


posted by Candice at 1:47 PM